Tuesday 16 June 2009 - Filling it! Girls ... ... |
I never thought of myself as a, even though my parents and relatives all think I am a good temper, good temperament, intelligent, obedient, is a rare child. I believe that once they say that is my child, but I found that I am not, I can very clever to do it in front of them a place where they would like to see me, that I still can not change itself with the disadvantages, I was a rebellious girl, longing for freedom, free and easy life.
For my family, I often find it very unfortunate, very unfortunate. Because it does not warm, in addition to the endless bickering, and they brought me nothing. While their parents are in pain I am, but I do not feel happy. At home I have always been silent, never mind with what they said. We have a deep divide between, I do not understand their psychology, they also do not know I was thinking. Yes, I am crazy, I will openly in the class point of view of class novels, sleeping, chatting with friends, or even skip class. Day of departure time from home to school, but often in the old class into the class or classes before the time of ringing tones follow the beat of their classmates and I watched a few under the sworn followers into the classroom. When the examination or copying other people39s papers simply do not take the exam, my parents never knew when our exams, when the scores, when the second. They do not ask, I never take the initiative to tell them. For the future I do not have any hope that I do not think what the future of their own to speak of, I find a variety of reasons, just for an excuse for all sorts of so they can sit back and give up. I have been enjoying a full day of their own, can still have the burden of pressure, I am full of guilt will be on or off as treason to the end of all my student life, so my dream died. I was such a pessimistic person, always stay do not give ourselves any way, so I can still live the life I almost decadent, no more than 20-year-old girl39s self-confidence and cheerful.
All my friends already have their own home, happy or unhappy, after all, it has been accompanied by only my health became critical. Every time they told me that it is time for love, and do not let a good youth wasted. I know some people they want to replace them at my side take care of me, because they have forgotten we had agreed. But I do not want to, I always told them that I do not want to find people to bound themselves together if the two people still lonely, then why should one irrelevant wronged people? I said I need freedom. The best reason, an excuse for the worst. This world really, die for love? That love should be like in the fairy tale or drama in real life would it? My parents let me do not believe that marriage, also filled with the feelings of my fear of the unknown.
I am a person who heat 3 minutes, every time I want to do something hard, I thought it would be great, but often fall by the wayside. For example, I suddenly have time to write diary and would like to record their daily mood and would like to express things, I tell myself that will guarantee to do so. I am full of joy to buy a notebook looks very beautiful, the beginning of the last few days, I actually stick to, and may later date notebook longer separated from the more developed to look at now, have not even read another example I runescape money often tell people that I would like to lose weight, I would like to go on a diet, you have no one Ithen pull into the water, I strongly you are no longer subject to temptation! Said very firmly, but not how long it will persist in giving up their own, also called the Dayton eat and then I will lose weight, so the next time runescape power leveling the next. Sad, depressed, only lip service.
From these things, I finally discovered that the so-called fundamental promise is nonsense! Even your own commitment to their own can not insist that can not be achieved, but also how much a state of mind to others?
I deep down is also a stubborn person, I rarely leak in front of others their own feelings, so in the eyes of most people, I is not the kind of trouble, happy music almost all day, as I face the day are with a smile, no matter how good I feel more bad. Not much my friend, only a few, I have only time in the face of their own emotions will be shown by all, and only I will say to their own thoughts and feelings. They are most vulnerable when I go at my side, they always give me very much rely on the warmth of the shoulders, so I feel they are necessary.
Very often, I would ask myself It runescape money is now their life is really want? This kind of living can make me happy, let me happy? I ask myself again and again, but did not answer. I am full of doubts about everything. I am not afraid of their own ability to create his own happy life, I am more afraid of their own will only have a few of my desperate hope that the people ... ... But, who can help me? Has always been their own destiny in our own hands, unless you have to rely on other people.
Everyone will have a confused and helpless when a confused, all the difficulties of itself is a growth process. Children are always in such a process of gradually growing up, grown up, they have found the ignorance, to see their own mistakes. Correct, and then thinking about why the error committed at the same time as committing another mistake again. It seems people are in life as a mistake, correct, and then make mistakes, and then the cycle of correction, unable to extricate themselves and no one was spared.
Has more than 20, but in some people39s eyes, I was a child, children grow up. It seems in the eyes of all parents, regardless of how much their children age, but that is only in front of them children, the children need them asylum. Although my parents did not give me a warm family environment, but they are not stingy in giving me all the love, with age, as I understand it can not understand a lot of things before. I am not going to complain that runescape gold they only quarrel, do not care about my feelings, but I will exert my utmost efforts runescape powerleveling to change their relations and hopes that some of our home I39m looking forward to the warmth.
Let the past the past it! Life will continue, people need to survive. Those who deserve to be forgiven! Yes, those are often out of the fetters of haunting and worries, but life really is beautiful!
Filling it! Girls ... ... |
|
|
About Me
Friends
|
| 
